Not my type !!

   I don’t like guys that love to skate . I don’t like guys that would rather be players . I don’t like guys that hide whenever they see you . I like regular type of guys , but I also like like Emo guys and guys that are respectful . The only reason why I like those types of guys is 1. because they aren’t afraid to tell the world how they feel about you 2. because these types of guys know how to win your heart with just a smile and a Hi, How are you doing . The only reason why I like those types of guys is because 1. they do really care about how you feel when your upset and 2 . because those guys don’t care what the world or other people say about them at all. They just compare to Lady Gaga whenever she is making her music videos . I also like respectful guys . Reason why I like those types of guys is because whenever they come around ,and your with a parent , they show how much respect they have for you and your family . They  just  don't come up and say all this nonsense stuff  like cussing your parents out . The only reason why I don’t like the guys listed at the very top is because 1, they are going to care more about their skateboard 2. because they are going to date more than one girl and 3. they are going to hide away from  you . I mean those types of  guys aren’t right for a girl that wants to have a successful relationship. That’s why I choose the very last ones . Sadly, though I might of had liked  the wrong type of guy I don’t regret it that much . 

                                       

ELA showcase

 My top three posts

1. Hungergames connections 
2. To change or not to change 
3. Sole provider

  For the three top posts I listed at the top is because in those posts I show how I think and what I would do to not change anything that I've learned that I keep things simple .

  My best example of creativity is

1. I tried my best

  I picked that song as my best creativity because i really do like the way I sang it with my best friend and plus that was my very first time singing to post it on my blog where people could see it .

    The evidence of my growth as a writer is

1. Change or not to change 

   I picked that one because I wouldn't change at all and how much It would affect a person to change .

   Proof I am a thinker / Learner

1. Hungergames connections  

 I picked this one because when I was doing this connection with the outside world I was thinking and finding things on the internet that were useful and while I was doing that I was thinking about the type of questions I would start my connections with . 

I tried my best

I tried my best

I'm sitting on my bed thinking about you but all I know is that you don't like me . Seeing you around her all the time it hurts me more and more . My heart breaks into little pieces that won't ever get back together

(Chorus): I tried my best, I did my best but all that was done is now a fall

I could of had tried more but there's no point like this feeling here inside of me I don't like this feeling in me I failed to know that you disappointed me

(chorus): I tried my best , I did my best but I'm being blocked by an invisible wall . Now there's hate inside my soul there's regret and nothing else in my heart . I thought you will always be there . Apparently it was a mistake I failed to let you know my love my love for you was when we first met and now its all friendship ohhhh~~~~ why

(chorus): I tried my best , I did my best but now I cant even rest

Fingernail missing ???

    So it happened on June 20th or so when I was at the movies with my cousins . Going to the movies with my cousins was really fun .That day we had gone to see the movie Mr .poppers penguins .That movie was hilarious . Soon enough the movie was over .       While we were outside the movie theatre there was a hill . On that hill there was grass and dirt . So then me and my cousins girlfriend decided to roll down that hill which was really fun . Soon after we were waiting for my uncle to get there . My uncle appeared out of the nowhere and said lets go. So then thats when my tragedy happened I had forgotten that he had brought his other 2 kids with him .So I opened the door and saw my little cousins there and I said “ooops, wrong door.” That was when I slammed the door on my thumb. I didn’t feel the door against my finger so I turned around and tried to walk away but it jerked me back . Then thats when I opened the door and saw my thumb bleeding and turning purple . At that moment I felt pain ,anger and sadness . When me and my cousins were in the  car my uncle asked me “ do you want me to take you to the hospital ?” but I had said “NO.” So I got home with tears in my eyes . My mom had asked me what had happened so I showed her my thumb and she was about to pass out because it looked really nasty . My mom had then asked me the same thing about going to the hospital but I said no . I kept saying no because I was scared of getting surgery on my thumb . So I slept with all the pain in my thumb . All that night  I could feel my self sobber in my sleep . The next day I felt even more worse . I couldn’t  feel my hand nor my thumb . Soon after about a month I was messing around when my nail just fell of . When that happened it disgusted me . Seeing my thumb took my appetite away for about 2 weeks .  Soon after my mom called the Health Alliance so she could make an appointment . Soon as I went to the appointment the doctors were shocked because they had never seen my thumb like that .The doctors called a special doctor to see my thumb .So then the other doctor agreed to see me as his patient . In about 2 weeks I went to see the doctor . The doctor told me that he knew for a fact that it would take my nail about 6 months to grow . Then school started and I was worried about what people would say about my thumb . I kept feeling self conscious and I still do . Now that I wrote this story and people will know I feel confident . Once everybody knows I wont have to hide my hand. I just hope the month of my operation comes quickly .

Father like daughter

My dad and his daughter are so close together . When I see them like that I feel lonely . I feel like I'm not his kid anymore . Yes he has 3 kids but yet he's close to one of us . He is always close to her no matter what. Yes I tried to see if he cared but all he does is stuff I cant stand . Yes he treats us with respect and the same but knowing he doesn't want me around him makes me feel hopeless . I love my dad and I love my sister but it fills me with jealousy . Knowing they have the same attitude kills me . I know she looks like my mom but I look like my dad but yet the same attitude keeps them very close . Yes I am mommas but so is my little brother. My little brother could careless because he is only 3 . There's 3 of us but I wish there was 2 . I give thanks to god for knowing that I would not feel lonely anymore but yet my little brother is so annoying but I still love him. Back to her and my dad .Yes I don't care anymore but at the same time I do . I know I shouldn't worry but I just can't help it . I cry at bed but she doesn’t know . Yes she is dead asleep and yes I know she has joy but when it comes to me  I am full of misery . It looks like to me she will never care. Once I learn that she cares maybe I will feel different maybe I won’t .

Fingernail missing ?????

So it happened on June 20th or so when I was at the movies with my cousins . Going to the movies with my cousins was really fun .That day we had gone to see the movie Mr .poppers penguins .That movie was hilarious . Soon enough the movie was over . While we were outside the movie theatre there was a hill . On that hill there was grass and dirt . So then me and my cousins girlfriend decided to roll down that hill which was really fun . Soon after we were waiting for my uncle to get there . My uncle appeared out of the nowhere and said lets go. So then thats when my tragedy happened I had forgotten that he had brought his other 2 kids with him .So I opened the door and saw my little cousins there and I said “ooops, wrong door.” That was when I slammed the door on my thumb. I didn’t feel the door against my finger so I turned around and tried to walk away but it jerked me back . Then thats when I opened the door and saw my thumb bleeding and turning purple . At that moment I felt pain ,anger and sadness . When me and my cousins were in the car my uncle asked me “ do you want me to take you to the hospital ?” but I had said “NO.” So I got home with tears in my eyes . My mom had asked me what had happened so I showed her my thumb and she was about to pass out because it looked really nasty . My mom had then asked me the same thing about going to the hospital but I said no . I kept saying no because I was scared of getting surgery on my thumb . So I slept with all the pain in my thumb . All that night I could feel my self sobber in my sleep . The next day I felt even more worse . I couldn’t feel my hand nor my thumb . Soon after about a month I was messing around when my nail just fell of . When that happened it disgusted me . Seeing my thumb took my appetite away for about 2 weeks . Soon after my mom called the Health Alliance so she could make an appointment . Soon as I went to the appointment the doctors were shocked because they had never seen my thumb like that .The doctors called a special doctor to see my thumb .So then the other doctor agreed to see me as his patient . In about 2 weeks I went to see the doctor . The doctor told me that he knew for a fact that it would take my nail about 6 months to grow . Then school started and I was worried about what people would say about my thumb . I kept feeling self conscious and I still do . Now that I wrote this story and people will know I feel confident . Once everybody knows I wont have to hide my hand. I just hope the month of my operation comes quickly .